Wretched Sentiment

I understand it not at all....

These feelings that permeate my soul, and haunt my very dreams......

'Twas an simpler existence those few years ago, when my very presence seemed to invite naught but the scorn and wrath of those around me. Though troublesome, the sureness of where I stood in the world provided me a cold comfort.The pursuit of my dreams and the desire to improve were all that I knew, and such was my preference.

This was not to last.....

For a new sensation has washed over me. I have been shown kindness, admiration and even love from others I had never known before. Such things I had never dreamed of. Why then does this breed confusion and feelings of great unease?

Are such concepts so foreign to me that I am repulsed in mind and body by their introduction?

Perhaps it is excitement that overwhelms my very being......

Or is it fear that gnaws away at my heart....the fear that I may never be worthy of the adoration I have so frequently recieved?

The turmultuous emotions brought on by these new experiences fill my nights with sleeplessness. Would that I could simply reach within my chest and tear these insecurities from my person with my bare hand, and continue my autonomous journey.....But 'twould be cowardice.

No longer can I live in the blissful limbo of infinite possibilities! No longer can my true self remain in dormancy!My true path lies before me, and I must not falter. Thus I fling myself freely into the maelstrom of the outside world that seems to beckon me so. Let my soul be bared for the world to see, for my fears shall impede me no further! This pain shall faze me no longer! I AM SET FREE BY MY ERSTWHILE WRETCHED SENTIMENT!








Don't mind me, just having a moment........

Thanks for listening!